April 02, 2004
maybe it's just me but growing up freaks me out.
hannah and jess are going to UA this fall, ray's mailing me his grad pic. herman's going to waterloo. who knows where erica's going...micah's talking about pre-med and pre-dentistry, even kimmee's gonna be in U. soon everyone will be all grown up, working a job, married with kids...and i'll still be here drawing my lil pictures and dancing on my own lil stage. scared of being left behind? maybe i am. what if i don't grow up? getting older scares me more than a bit. not all the responsibility or the living on my own and making my own decisions because i'd like that but the fact that i'll be *older*. not that it's a bad thing. maybe i'm afraid of change, or all the changes that come with the passage of time. my philosophy teacher would call this an existentialist dilemma. i call this the peter pan syndrome.
*the lady protesteth so!* hahahahaha. sorry inside joke.
note to ray: i REALLY want to go to your grad. pleeeeez ask me to your grad. and purchase the plane tickets for me? thanx, vma ^^
